Thursday, May 5, 2011

Trying to Get Over a Big Ole' Hump or My Whiney List

I can not get into the groove.  I've got ideas of things I'd like to blog about and I just can't get myself to sit down and do it.  Mostly because I'm not in the right frame of mind.

I've got a post on home stewardship and contentment I've been wanting to do for weeks now.  And, everytime I sit down to write it, I get stuck.  Because I'm not feeling very content right now.

I'm feeling restless.  And bored.  Tired of the mundane.  Tired of working so hard with minimal results.  Tired of being overweight and having to think about what I eat.  

I'm feeling a bit isolated.  While I have a lot of acquaintances, I have just a few friends who I'd actually call on the phone.  And they work outside the home.  My sister who recently became a mom also works.  I have no adults to talk to during the day.

I'm bad at making friends.  Don't get me wrong.  I'm friendly.  But, the work that goes into establishing a new friendship seems so overwhelming.  I've got so little energy & motivation left after giving my kids everything they need that nurturing a fledgling friendship is more than I can do right now.  I crave the ease of good friends who can say anything to each other without worrying what the other is fact KNOWING what the other is thinking.  But that kind of friendship takes hard work and awkward moments before you get to that point.

I wish my husband were around a bit more.  But, he has to work a lot.  And, even if he wasn't working, he's still a worker.  He's the type of guy that always has to be doing something.  He's always on the move.  I'm the opposite.  I can't keep up with him.  

My biggest problem is - I don't know what I need to do to get over this hump.  This dumpy, grumpy hump.  Blech.  

Well there you have it.  Thanks for letting me whine a bit.  Sometimes it's just nice to get it all out of my head and down on paper ( screen).


  1. I think we all feel that way sometimes. I understand the friend bit I am in that boat too. After you give everything to your family, and there usally is still so much needed done in the house, you just don't have the energy for that type of friendship but that is what is needed to get you through. Its finding a balence. I haven't found it but I hope you can. But the rain is gone and today the sun is shinning hopefull that will bring you a little kick start.

  2. Sorry you are feeling a little blue. I know how you feel about friends. Right now I don't feel like I really have any either. Not sure what I have done wrong. The friends I thought I had just don't seem interested in being friends anymore. I will say a prayer for you. Hope you have a wonderful day with your boys.

  3. Praying for you.
    You can call me anytime, anyday.
    I know what you feel like with giving everything to the kids.
    The other day I painted my toenails- they were horrible and painted my nails clear.
    I can't believe what a difference it made. I like that when I look down at my nails they look nice even when I wash a ton of dishes.
    I can't seem to find the middle between doing everything for the kids and doing some stuff for myself.
    As for weight, I am trying to make better decisions for everything and praying.
    I believe this will eventually show results because I know I am being obedient by listening to that small voice that says you do not need a snack!
    And sometimes I mess up, but I will keep going.
    I'll keep you posted.
    Praying you have a better day!

  4. Oh been there many times through they years and even working through it right now...for me to get out of my "don't like anything" mood..well I have to create...paint, sew or something, and put on some music, (oldies some times to feel young and just burst out in song) In fact last April (2010) I posted a full week on learning how to re-energize...because I was needing to talk to myself...which is really what I do on my blog

    Hugs...find what re-energizes you and go for will find before you know it that you have pulled yourself out of the hole and enjoy seeing the sunshine.


  5. Hugs. Sometimes we just need a break! Find something you enjoy and do it!!


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