I can not get into the groove. I've got ideas of things I'd like to blog about and I just can't get myself to sit down and do it. Mostly because I'm not in the right frame of mind.
I've got a post on home stewardship and contentment I've been wanting to do for weeks now. And, everytime I sit down to write it, I get stuck. Because I'm not feeling very content right now.
I'm feeling restless. And bored. Tired of the mundane. Tired of working so hard with minimal results. Tired of being overweight and having to think about what I eat.
I'm feeling a bit isolated. While I have a lot of acquaintances, I have just a few friends who I'd actually call on the phone. And they work outside the home. My sister who recently became a mom also works. I have no adults to talk to during the day.
I'm bad at making friends. Don't get me wrong. I'm friendly. But, the work that goes into establishing a new friendship seems so overwhelming. I've got so little energy & motivation left after giving my kids everything they need that nurturing a fledgling friendship is more than I can do right now. I crave the ease of good friends who can say anything to each other without worrying what the other is thinking...in fact KNOWING what the other is thinking. But that kind of friendship takes hard work and awkward moments before you get to that point.
I wish my husband were around a bit more. But, he has to work a lot. And, even if he wasn't working, he's still a worker. He's the type of guy that always has to be doing something. He's always on the move. I'm the opposite. I can't keep up with him.
My biggest problem is - I don't know what I need to do to get over this hump. This dumpy, grumpy hump. Blech.
Well there you have it. Thanks for letting me whine a bit. Sometimes it's just nice to get it all out of my head and down on paper (well...computer screen).